Before I met you

You always leave something behind.

Some days when I wake up alone in my bed, I feel haunted.
Accompanied by the pieces that I have taken from the men I’ve been with.
Their stories – of their past loves, families, homes, dreams, futures

There is a heaviness that comes with sharing your bed with people.
There is a responsibility to keep that vulnerability safe.

I enjoy seeing men like this, wanting, needing me.
Taking me in, becoming familiar with my scent and taste, then craving it.

I always thought that being with someone was nice.
when you’re young and frivolous, you don’t think about the heaviness you’ll feel someday,
even if you know its coming.

someday, you get tired of sharing yourself, you want there to just be someone constant.
someone worthy, interesting, unfailing. that’s it really, at the end of the day, that’s the only thing we want.
someone who’s actually there.

Before I met you

Flawless

We teach girls to shrink themselves
To make themselves smaller
We say to girls
“You can have ambition
But not too much
You should aim to be successful
But not too successful
Otherwise you will threaten the man”
Because I am female
I am expected to aspire to marriage
I am expected to make my life choices
Always keeping in mind that
Marriage is the most important
Now marriage can be a source of
Joy and love and mutual support
But why do we teach girls to aspire to marriage
And we don’t teach boys the same?
We raise girls to each other as competitors
Not for jobs or for accomplishments
Which I think can be a good thing
But for the attention of men
We teach girls that they cannot be sexual beings
In the way that boys are
Feminist: the person who believes in the social
Political, and economic equality of the sexes

– Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie

From Beyonce’s Flawless. So, so true.

Flawless

Namaste

My soul honours your soul.
I honour the place in you where the entire universe resides.
I honour the light, love, truth, beauty and peace within you,
because it is also within me.
In sharing these things we are united,
we are the same,
we are one.

Namaste.

What the end of every yoga class feels like.

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Sukiyaki

Sukiyaki

To me, creating a life that feels good has become very important in the recent months.

I do yoga, eat well, meet the ones I love – spend meaningful time with them, spend my money mindfully, travel, read… ALL to get the feeling of immense satisfaction.

There are certain things you do for your soul – and when you do them, your inner glow shines through and people begin to notice it. And it’s not because you started using this new beauty product, but all because you genuinely feel good.

When I was in my mother’s womb, she played the song Sukiyaki to me over and over again so that when I was born it would soothe me because it was a familiar tune. She said it worked. I still really like the song, it’s linked to the image, it’s one of those things that makes me feel good for no real reason.

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