heartbeats

My grandaunty passed this morning. Nobody knows what to do because she was the first to go. I’m glad it was painless – but the thing that I’m most afraid of is that I’ll never see my granduncle this way again.

He just kept repeating that he misses her and that his life is going to change so drastically. At these situations there is absolutely nothing you can say, all you can do is be there, to reassure the ones left behind that they are not alone – even if you know that they are. <3

everything i am

if i could tell you a tale, i’d tell you a tale of love,
of love that has held true through all these years.
i love u.

Sarojini Gopal & Muthu Krishnan – my grandparents. 50 years (:

it’s you

b&w

Sweden Creates QR-Code Condom

I was doing some research on QR codes when I came across this brilliant campaign by Ester for CONDOM08 in Sweden.

To encourage the use of condoms amongst the population’s 20-30 yr olds, creative agency Ester came up with a campaign involving QR codes, an app that measures your bonking pattern and personalized graphs from results of the app.

They then used the results of the survey to design posters and web banners – to keep up the buzz and generate more interest. (Beautiful & interesting presentation of statistics always excite me)

The Sex Profile from ESTER on Vimeo.

Simple idea, beautiful execution, measurable results – orgasmic.

(via Bangstyle)

Pharoahs

I’m glad to have found friends with an opinion, because I’m naturally not an opinionated person, especially when it comes to my personal life. Its not because I want them to form an opinion for me, which they have never done, but its because its really nice to sit around and have an intelligent conversation about things that will change your life and get such varied input.

The largest thing that has dawned upon me in the recent months was that I don’t want to have children. There are a dozen reasons (at least) why I don’t want to – and whenever I hear people say things like “oh, you’ll change your mind when you grow older” the first reply that pops into my head is “but you don’t have my mind and you will never see it from my point of view unless you really knew me”. There are some things that I wouldn’t choose to do, but I might be swayed, but not with children. That’s where I draw the line.

I never want to have someone that I have the responsibility of bringing up in the exact opposite way that I was brought up, that in itself sounds wayyyy too fucking stressful. Fuck procreation. Something went wrong along the way and its just come to a point where I think it’s cruel. Some things are never meant to be passed on.

Snakes

And suddenly, I felt nothing.

No longer did a prick mean drawing blood,

no more tear gas to set me off,

no sadness in the eyes of a child could move me.

I met Medusa,

she was my love.

 

At least turning to stone was a relief,

just to be cold, and still.

To see the world go by,

to pass in that cocoon.

All’s in place, I saw her last,

all is good, all is good. 

the years go by

The older I get, the less I care about so many things.

I guess its not that I used to care about them more, its just that I’ve lost the energy needed to care about them. I don’t care about so many people that I used to give a shit about, probably because I saw how easily some people can just come and go.

I do not know how you can have so much to spare that you continue to care about everyone that is around you, I sure as hell don’t.

 

In utero

Sometimes I write something and I only like a little bit of it. Like today, I wrote something, but I only liked this line:

we are all melting into the clavicles of age.

All that ends well

I started of the New Year with the flu. Feels like ass because being sick is just so tiring. You try your best to stay awake and fight it, but most of the time the flu just wins, you just end up falling asleep.

It’s alright though, I’ve always had this theory – things that fuck up a little in the beginning usually end better. So here’s to another great year.

I’m really looking forward to this year, it’s going to be fantastic (:

Here’s a little video from two of the cutest ppl around (: enjoy!

Zooey Deschanel & Joseph Gordon-Levitt – “What Are You Doing New Years Eve”

Fix you

“She came home from the hospital after her father passed covered in tears. I started crying and kept asking her ‘What can I do for you? Tell me how I can help’…And she looked up at me and said ‘Just hold me..’cause you’re the only thing that can fix me right now.’ ”

- Chris Martin on the inspiration for ‘Fix You’

 

Everybody’s broken, somehow. This has to be one of the most romantic things I’ve read in a long while